Early morning readings..............

I'm not stupid I wish you would quit acting like I am. I know what's bothering you I know what's going on with you! You're in a way lying to me........ Why can't you just tell me? I am the easier one of the two..... I have taken some pretty rough news in my lifetime. I know how to handle things. But the trust is still not there pitty! I wish none of this would have happened I explain and explain running out of ways to tell you the truth. I am physically wearing out because of this I feel like another person you make me feel as if I am lying? Am I? I'm not. But day in and day out things happen to make you think other wise. I was supposed to be your better half, your calm to your storm. But now I feel like we are just two people fighting through life because it's convenient. That sucks. Wish it were different. Wish you would listen, wish I could help ease you. I have been pushed away time after time in my life by different people. I am used to it, but it does not mean I like the feeling, the pain. I do not even wish that upon my worst enemy. I The letters, the calls, the mailman who can't mind his own business. These are things that are killing this, all because I cannot talk to you and change it. I am sorry this is hard for me, but I don't want to feel like this anymore. Sorry.