Trust........

My first instinct is to make assumptions for the worst. I have had many relationships that did not work because of trust. I need you to be honest, let me know your every little things. I cannot stand the fact that you still cannot tell me everything. I know things as well and wait for you to come clean. I hurt, new people, "old friends", are you doing what you say you are? I always tell you what I am doing. When you skip school...... I know these things. I was born at night but not last night. I went to school to learn how to read people. I know body language and know the uncertainties. It hurts when you lie to my face. I don't know how you can look into my eyes and do it. Or even do what you're doing without thinking about where I am am what you said! You say you love me, that you want to marry me. I want that too. It's huge. But I cannot right now feeling like this. You're the prestige and I am the audience. Only thing is when you do the same trick over and over again, the audience catches on and loses faith in the prestige. I am blind to your tricks. Immune to your uncertainties. I say nothing cause I don't want to fight, I still want you. I am afraid of being alone. But with the path that we are taking together I might as well turn around and ask for directions because I am lost and fear that I will not see the path again, the path where I was happy and you were happy. But until this time comes I lay here rotting, wasting away, holding on to that last kiss I had from you!